I loved reading this Natalie, it's so beautifully articulated.
"It’s like something goes wrong as the words travel from my brain to my mouth, and they take the wrong exit and get lodged in my throat. Writing down my thoughts allows me adequate processing time to articulate what I’m trying to say. It helps me make sense of the world when it’s all so overwhelming and hard to decipher." - I understand this feeling all too well. It's why I turned to writing too 💜
I was wondering where you had been! I want to see your writing more, if you have it in you to share out loud and for the world to see. I already told you this but your piece with Farrah soooo stuck with me (and I read it and loved it before it won!) Also, I loved this line, your vulnerability is comforting because there is so much truth in it for you, and simultaneously for all of us. If I have "good" traction with one piece, I'm stuck on trying to one-up what happened. Why do we do that to ourselves?
"At first, I felt pressure to write something as deep and meaningful as my first story, and then I felt resentment towards myself for sharing so much of myself on the internet, debated deleting the post and all traces of it and myself from the internet, pulling a Lorde, moving to New Zealand and getting really into crystals, yoga and only wearing linen. Once the thing that I had been chasing actually happened, and it was a thing that could be a reality instead of a pipe dream, I froze up and couldn’t do anything to continue the momentum."
Aww Steph! I’ve missed your comments and this little Substack community. It’s hard to truly write what YOU want when there are people making a lot of money on here from their writing, and obviously to have writing as your only income would be the dream for any writer?! But then I feel like for me, something is lost if I start viewing it in that way. Like it’s this almost sacred thing that saved me and I just want to write from that place. Glad to be back and ready to be held accountable for regularly posts please!!!!
When I am in this place it feels like a vortex and I am spinning in it. I am dizzy by all these writers I discover that have huge followings and write and write and I'm in awe by how they do it... and get paid!? Screw the "rules" on how much you should post. Do it when it feels good.
I loved reading this Natalie, it's so beautifully articulated.
"It’s like something goes wrong as the words travel from my brain to my mouth, and they take the wrong exit and get lodged in my throat. Writing down my thoughts allows me adequate processing time to articulate what I’m trying to say. It helps me make sense of the world when it’s all so overwhelming and hard to decipher." - I understand this feeling all too well. It's why I turned to writing too 💜
Thanks Lyndsay. It’s a comfort knowing you can relate. Forever reminding myself of why I write and to be grateful to have found it!
I loved this line too! So many good ones in this piece.
I was wondering where you had been! I want to see your writing more, if you have it in you to share out loud and for the world to see. I already told you this but your piece with Farrah soooo stuck with me (and I read it and loved it before it won!) Also, I loved this line, your vulnerability is comforting because there is so much truth in it for you, and simultaneously for all of us. If I have "good" traction with one piece, I'm stuck on trying to one-up what happened. Why do we do that to ourselves?
"At first, I felt pressure to write something as deep and meaningful as my first story, and then I felt resentment towards myself for sharing so much of myself on the internet, debated deleting the post and all traces of it and myself from the internet, pulling a Lorde, moving to New Zealand and getting really into crystals, yoga and only wearing linen. Once the thing that I had been chasing actually happened, and it was a thing that could be a reality instead of a pipe dream, I froze up and couldn’t do anything to continue the momentum."
Aww Steph! I’ve missed your comments and this little Substack community. It’s hard to truly write what YOU want when there are people making a lot of money on here from their writing, and obviously to have writing as your only income would be the dream for any writer?! But then I feel like for me, something is lost if I start viewing it in that way. Like it’s this almost sacred thing that saved me and I just want to write from that place. Glad to be back and ready to be held accountable for regularly posts please!!!!
When I am in this place it feels like a vortex and I am spinning in it. I am dizzy by all these writers I discover that have huge followings and write and write and I'm in awe by how they do it... and get paid!? Screw the "rules" on how much you should post. Do it when it feels good.